I would like to Thank Everyone who prayed for Daniel. Prayers were heard and answered. He is now at home with his parents and doing a lot better.

It's been over a month since I last updated since I was in Tennessee for 2 weeks and then stayed with Jenna and Jack for a week after we came back to Kentucky. She was supposed to have a doctot's appointment on the firswt but they cancelled it which wasn't to good for Jenna since she had been sick for quite a while. So, she wound up going to the Emergancy room that night. She was dehydrated and extremely nauseated. So, they put an IV in her to give her some fluids in her system and did an ultrasound since she had been having a lot of lower stomach pains. We got to hear the heart beat and seen the baby for the first time. It looked like a little blob....lol She had another ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and they gave her some pics but they aren't very good. She is 12 weeks as of today. She can't wait until the morning sickness is over with she has had it really bad. Just like I did with her. She said the only thing that helps is tortilla chips and root beer candy drops. She has left her apartment and has moved in here until her and Jack can find a place. It seems the apartment she has is growing mold and makes her sick everytime she walks in the door. It even makes Jack sick when he stay in there for a long period of time. It seems the upstairs bathroom leaks and now she has black mold growing along the ceiling in her bathroom, and from where her air conditioner broke down and started leaking into the wall mold is growing there as well. It is so bad you can smell it as soon as you open the door it nearly knocks you off your feet. She has gotten some rather difficult news. They did a pap tset when she went to her appointment and it came back abnormal. Usually they would do a scrapping for cells but, since that would cause a miscarriage they can't do it. So, they are going to put a microscope in her to look at the cells to make sure they aren't any that are cancerous. She has that done on the 5th of October. I'll let yall know how things go with that.

As for the diet....grrrr!!! I did really well while I was gone I even went down to 264 at one time. But, here lately I can't seem to stop eating. I think it's because I ran out of my depression medication and just got a chance to get it refilled. Now it will take a couple of days to get back into my system and get me straightened back out. At least I can fit into my jeans that I bought 2 years ago but couldn't wear. An I can also fit into some old jeans I haven't been able to wear since 2000. That really made me happy. Plus I was able to wear a size 38 in a bra....it has been 21 years since I last wore a 38. I was really excited about that. Now I can go out and get some pretty bras instead of granny bras that I used to wear....lol I've already strated my Christmas shopping for the season. I wanted to start early because I hate having to do it so close to the holidays. Hopefully I'll be done with it before December. I've even been doing some baby shopping....lol Jenna and I went nuts over all the baby stuff. She is making the baby's room Winnie the Pooh and Friends. All the stuff she has so far is soooo cute. I even started making her a blanket for the baby. I've already used one skeen of yarn and I just started it....lol I hope to make her a quit for the baby as well. I told she is going to help me with it since my hands have really been hurting here lately.

Welp, I am going to go lay down for a while I have been feeling a little sick here lately myself. I'll update again soon. TTYL Ciao All Staci

I am going AWOL for a while. My best friend in the whole world is needing me to come and help her through a terrible ordeal. Her oldest son was in a terrible wreck last night and may not make it through the day. She told me they had to cut him out of the car and stat flight him to Vanderbilt Hospital in Tennessee. She says he has blood on his brain and his brain is swollen. Now I have known this boy since he was 4 years old, he and Jenna have been the best of friend and through a lot together. The prayers I am asking for is for Daniel & Jenna. Every since she has heard the news she hasn't been able to get herself under control and has been throwing up all morning long and has been hysterical. An with her being pregnant its not good for her. The thing is Tabitha didn't know Jenna was pregnant when she told her and I haven't been able to get a hold of her since we found out. So, that means Daniel doesn't know about Jenna either. Hopefully when we get down there she can get him to wake up, and let him know he's going to be an Uncle. I'm sorry I still se this little blond headed boy standing at my backdoor with a dirty face asking if I had any kids he could play with. It's not right he just turned 20 on August 9th. We haven't had him in this world long enough to lose him now. I may not always like some of the things he does, but I will always Love him. He is my Son!

Yep thats right GrandMa. I went to spend a week with Jenna last week because she hasn't been feeling to good and she said she has taken pregnancy test and they all showed negative. So, I made her an appointment with the clinic down in Lexington and the test came back positive. She looked like you could have knocked her over with a feather. She was all white and kind of shakey. She was worried about disappointing me and the rest of the family by getting pregnant before she was married. I just threw my arms around her and said, "My baby is having a baby", then I hugged her again and gave her a big kiss on the cheek. I think she was fine after that cause she said, " Let go of me woman". I didn't want her to feel like she had let me down because she hasn't I Love her with all my heart and I will Love my first Grandbaby as well. I am worried about all the stress she is under right now at work. When I was down there she would come home from work with her face all red from her blood pressure being up. I told her she needs to find a job where she doesn't have to put up with all the teenybopper bullshit that she has to put up with there. Her dad made her feel better when he came down to pick me up. He had bought the Baby some bibs and handed them to her. She was really worried about what he was going to say and what her GrandMa would say. But they both surprised her and told her they Love her and will Love the baby as well. She is due on April 1st, 2007. I know April fools day...lol I don't think she's have it on that day, I think she will have it sooner then that. She was 5 weeks early because my blood pressure and because my ribs are small and she didn't have much space to grow, and she is smaller then what I was. I do however think it will be a boy since she hasn't had any morning sickness except once yesterday. I know I'm rambling and gushing but I'm just so happy for her. She doesn't seem the same as she used to before she moved. She's seems happy and content with her life now. I think she is ready to start her family now.

OK, enough about that onto my dieting. I did try to eat less while I was down there, but all I managed to do was maintain my weight. Which is better then gaining. I going to try and do better the rest of the month. I know I won't make 15 or 20 pound weight loss for the month, but thats ok if I can lose 5-10 pounds I will be happy. I did manage to drink all my water while I was down there. So, that is a good thing. Welp I am going to go for now I will be back to update everyone again soon. I'll TTYL Ciao All Staci

Well all today is the first day of a whole new diet. I tried to post yesterday but my comp shut down on me right when I was getting ready to say my good byes to everyone and I lost everything I had wrote. Let's just it doesn't happen again today. As you can see I am starting this diet off at 275 pounds. I was weighing a lil more thanks to TOM but now that he is gone so is that extra weight. I was looking over my earlier journals from when I started this mission I had made a New Years Resolution to lose 30 pounds by the first of 2007. Well, I lost it within 6 months. So, now I am going to start making monthly resolutions. On the first of every month I will write in my journal how much I pledge to lose. For the month of August I pledge to lose between 15 & 20 pounds. I usually lose weight when I start a new diet and hopefully I'll do the same with this one. That's why I am putting between 15 & 20 instead of just saying 20. So, that way if I lose 16 pounds this month I won't feel bad and want to binge and gain back what I have achieved. I know it's going to be hard, I know the weight is Not going to just disappear over night. I am determined to Not wear a Granny dress to Jennas Wedding. It may not be a size 7 or even a 12 but at least I know for certain it WON'T be a 24!!!

The first thing I thought I would do is list what I am giving up like I did for my diet during Lenten. I have been eating a lot of red meat again. I know I shouldn't but I don't usually feel like cooking two different meals, and having all guys in the house of course they want their Beef...lol Ok let's get this thing started.....

Cut Down to 2 Red Meats a Week......Eat at least 3 salads a week......Eat only 2 or 4 slices of Wheat Bead a week.......No Ice Cream, Cakes, Cookies, Chips, Peanuts, Fried Foods, Pizza, Dips......And I will cut down on how many fresh fruits I eat in a day, only 1 peach instead of 3......I will however need to have my Dark Chocolate once a month because it seems strange, but it does help with my migraines....So, only one small bag of M&Ms a month....No more pudding, cheese cake, sugared sodas, less Tea....MORE WATER!....Start taking my Vitamins again......And whatever else I can think of later I will add.

Welp, that about does it for me. I will update hopefully every monday if not sooner and let everyone know how things are going. I might just update twice a week it depends on how I'm doing and if other people start coming back to the journaling ring. I hope All my friends I have made here are doing well with their diets and I wish them all the Luck in the world on their journey to being healthy. And I would like to Thank everyone for all their support in the past. I Will TTYL Ciao All Staci

Welp, thats right I'm back to my strict dieting as of August 1st. I have 7 months to lose as much weight as possible. We went yesterday and was looking at wedding dresses for Jenna and the Brides Maids. An since she said I can't wear my Jeans or Stretchy pants guess Imma have to get a dress. So, I was lookin around and all the dresses that were in my size looked like Grandma dresses. So, I am back for good trying to lose 10 pounds each month until the Wedding arrives. I want to look good in my dress since it's going to be costing me so much money.

An speaking of looking good in dresses....Jenna was beautiful in her dress. The first one was really pretty but it wouldn't close around her boobs. And the second she tried on...omg...it was sooo pretty the train was kind of long but the one she actually picked out. OMG!!! It is Ivory with a champange in-lay in the bodice with pearls... Oh and when she had it on I just wanted to cry....she looked SOOO gorgeous in it. She looked like she stepped out of a Fairy Tale! It is strapless and has a cathedral lenght train. It actually shows how small her waist is...the woman helping us actually made a comment that she was glad someone could actually fill the dress out. She said some girls come in with nothing up top to fill it out and it looks different after all the altering. It will need to be taken in a little so her top doesn't fall out, but thats all. She even tried on veils, but she's not a veil type of person...lol  At least not the ones they showed her. I'm sorry I've seen some really pretty veils, but the ones they brought her were ugly and really didn't do anything for her at all. I think it might be because she is so short and the ones they brought out were kind of long...at least on her they were long. Jenna broke the news to her Dad last night that he was going to have to get a Tux and he about flipped out. He is a strict jeans and t-shirt kind of guy....lol I told him if I had to wear a dress then he has to wear a Tux. Then Josh flipped out when he found out he was wearing one too....lol My guys...what can I say they hate to dress up....lol She got on the phone last night while she was here and called Tabitha, whom is my best friend i have known her for 16 years, and asked if she would allow jenell to be one of her flower girls. Of course Tabitha said yes...well Johnny said yes. What jenna wants Johnny makes sure she gets...lol He has always spoiled her, he says she was his first daughter even if it's not by blood...lol Now all she has to do is ask her Aunt Tina if Amanda can be her other flower girl and she is going to ask her cousin Brittney if she would like to be a Brides Maid. Her cousin on her Dads side is going to be her Matron of Honor. They are more like sisters then cousins. They are exactly alike they fight and argue and then say I Love U, I'll Talk To U Later...lol Jennafer asked me to come down and stay with her over a weekend so we can get some things together for the wedding.

Welp, I've been blabbering long enough. I'm going to go for now. I will be post at least once a week from now on...possibly twice just so everyone will know how I'm doing with my progress. So, Wish me LUCK Everyone. I'll TTYL Ciao Staci

Just to let everyone know I am still here. I've been really busy lately. We have painted the Living Room and Hallway and are going to be working on the Kitchen and Bathroom next. I haven't really been counting anything it's really been too hot here to fix big meals, so mostly we've been eating light anyway.  I seem to be eating a lot of banana popsicles wich only has 40 calories in them. I haven't been back to the gym since Jenna still has my shoes...lol I'm really wanting to go back though I really miss that place. Didn't think I would ever say that about some place that makes me sweat so much...lol Jenna has really lost alot of weight, she doesn't know exactly how many pounds it is but she can fit back into her smaller pants. I do have some rather disturbing news about her though. It seems one of the guys she works with attacked her one night while they were closing up. She said he pinned her against the wall with a rolling cart and when she said for him to stop he pushed harder and when she tried to scream he pushed even harder. She says she's ok but I could tell she was shaken, and her stomach was bruised. I told her to call the police because it was all caught on tape. I don't know if she did or not, but I do know that he didn't get into any trouble at work. Which if you ask me is Totally Bull! Well, at least I have some good news too. It seems she has set a date. I'm not sure if I had it in my last update or not but the guy she has been seeing has asked her to marry him and she said yes. The date they choose is March 10th of next year. I told her she should wait until 2008 just so they could get to know each other a little bit better. I just don't want her prince to turn into a toad.

Welp I guess thats about all. As you can see by my weight I have recorded I'm still down into the 270's. Once the weather starts to cool off I'm going to start getting back to a stricter diet. I Promiss I'll Post Again Soon. I really appreciate everyone who has sent me e-mails asking about me. It's nice to know I have made some really good friends in Bravenet, and the Dieters Ring.

I'll TTYL Ciao Staci

Hey everyone not a lot going on. Just thought I would say Hi to everyone that stops by, and let ya'll know what I'm up to. I've been making homemade BBQ Pork for Jenna. It's one of the only things she really likes that I make. An since we are going to take her some groceries tomorrow I thought I would surprise her with a big bowl of it so she could freeze some and take it out as she wants. I know the first thing she'll probably do is fix her a big sandwich of it since I haven't made it in over 2 years. It takes so long to make because I have to shread up the meat after it cooks for about 3 hours and then simmer it for about an hour after that in the BBQ sauce. I had her dad go to the store and get some of the stuff that we are taking her tomorrow so I could freeze it so it wouldn't go bad before we get it to her. I'm going to pick up the rest of the things tomorrow before we leave like cereal and rice and fruit things like that I figure I'll spend about 100.00 in food. That should last her a couple of weeks. 

As for my diet I haven't really been keeping track, but I'm doing pretty good with keeping off what I have taken off so far. it's been too hot to really think about eating so thats a plus. An by the time I get done cooking and cleaning up the mess I don't really feel much like eating. The past 2 nights i haven't really cooked no one has been eating I just fixed corn dogs for Hubby and I. Josh was at class tonight and his 2 off days he slept all the time he was at home. When ever I get my shoes back from Jenna I guess I'll start going back to the gym. I tried wearing her shoes she left here but it felt as if I was wearing clown shoes....lol I don't understand how she can wear my shoes but hers never seem to fit me. I wear a 4 and she always gets a 5 and a half or 6. By the time I get them back the dogs will probably be chasing me around the house from the chicken smell...lol

Welp, I guess Imma get off of here and go to bed. I'll TTYL Ciao All Staci. 

 

Its been a really long time since I was on here last and thought I would take a few minutes to let you all know that I'm still around. I haven't really felt like posting lately I've been dealing with a few things and until its over I can't really focus on writing. I'm still on my antidepressants, and I am coping with Jennafer moving out. I really miss her, but the way she left was wrong its like she is trying to forget everything that is here. She even left her dog which really pisses me off because no one is wanting to take care of it. Its about to go to the pound so she can get a good home which she really deserves. I'm really Not looking forward to Fathers Day. This year it falls on the 18th which is the day my dad passed away and even with the meds I still cry when I think of him. I know it will get better once the day has passed so, I'm just holding off on dieting. I'm just kind of teetering between 277 and 281 which really doesn't bother me as long as I don't get up close to 290 or even 300 I'll be fine. I figure I still have another week or so to go then I can focus back on my diet, and start posting regularly again. I do have some good news about my son. He finally got a job he likes. He is working as a stock person at Wal-Mart grocery and is making 8.90 an hour. He gets along with everyone there and has made a lot of new friends. Everyone he has worked with has given him rave reviews to the store manager. It has really help him with his weight loss too. He has gone from 251 to 228 so far. He is taking some of his first paycheck and getting him some new pants since his old ones are starting to fall off of him.

Welp I just wanted to let you all know I'm still here and I'll be back again soon. TTYL Ciao Staci.

Welp, today is the end of the weight challenge that I started in the forum. I didn't do too well at first but, now I am kciking thing into high gear. I have lost a total of 30 pounds since first starting my diet at the beginning of the year. I started out at 305 and now I am down to 275.

Welp, thats all I have to report except that I'm going to continue my challenge and try to lose another 5 pounds by Mother's Day. So, I guess I'll TTYL Ciao All Staci.